I stopped for five years at age fifty. Today at 60, the desire is stronger and the need greater than at anytime in my life. Too bad I had to wait so long to appreciate and enjoy this wonderful gift. Of course, letting go of the fear and deception makes all the difference. I would encourage you to confront your own reality and make some decisions. As they say in the "mind business", past behavior is the best indicator of future behavior. I am not a psychologist, but I did stay at a Holiday Inn last night! Good luck.
