I realized at a pretty early age that I didn't really like my body. I didn't like or want my male organ. Ironically, the first orgasm I remember was when I was trying to shove that thing back inside my body. I wanted to get rid of it. I wanted breasts and a vagina. I wanted to be loved by and have sex with men. I wanted to be able to have a baby and feel that life growing within me. So if I could have been a real female then, YES. But now it is many years down the road. I've grown older. My skin is weathered. I am bald. I will never be 20 something again. So those feelings have faded into a distant dream. And, in spite of how great the surgeons are now, I am afraid I would be disappointed with the results of SRS and all of the other necessary modifications. I suppose that the bottom line is that I have grown somewhat content or at least accepting of the way things are now.
