She Was Gone...

[Stlalice]

An Irish Friendship wish...

May there always be work for your hands to do;
May your purse always hold a coin or two;
May the sun always shine on your windowpane;
May a rainbow be certain to follow each rain;
May the hand of a friend always be near you;
May God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you.

Your friends are always here for you - as you have been for us.
Welcome back girl...

[susie evans]

HOLLY

Glad to see thing's are starting to balance out now i new holly was just alittle tired and needed some time to think and rest

susie

[Daintre]

Well, thank you Holly, I needed a good cry. Thank you for keeping us informed, I am sure it was tough to do. I am so very happy you are home, I missed you so much.

[Mercedes]

Holly, I am so pleased to hear you are on your way back. Things would not be the same without you. I am also amazed by the support everyone has shown, actually I take that back, I am not surprised, given that I have rarely been in a place, cyber or otherwise, where people care as much about the well being of others as in this community.

Mercedes XOXO

[SarahLynn]

Without going into details SarahLynn has been off the charts from a serious infection. She has been really really sick and has only now gotten enough ahead of the regular email to visit this site and to read some of what has gone on while she was away. It will be many weeks before she has caught up on all the news. And then she is also trying to keep track of all that is ongoing as well.

Holly I read with interest your first post and sat back to think about what was being said. And then i nearly fell out of my chair. Holly, our Holly, gone? Gracious no, don't let that happen, we need her. And I read with greater interest your explination and felt you were needed even more. I am sure all the others were, as I was, willing to help you through this crisis, if only we had known the problem. And while I did not know the problem existed I would have missed you here when I returned. I am so glad this is resolving itself. Please keep us informed of your progress.



SarahLynn

[VeronicaMoonlit]

While all this is going on, two women come in looking to have fills done on some rather long nails. They looked at me and the color that was being put on and one of them asked, "Are you a cross dresser?" Now I must admit that the abruptness of the question took me a bit by surprise. And for the briefest of moments, in light of the last several days, I hesitated... but then the words fell out of my mouth, "Yes, I am." Without missing a beat she followed up with, "Do you wear dresses and wigs and makeup?" This time without hesitation I said, "Yes, I do." She said, "Well, at least you don't lie about it." "Why should I lie? It's who I am." IT'S WHO I AM. Holly is who I am. Wow, talk about a defining moment.

Powerful words aren't they: Yes I am. Simple, but very powerful. And to say them, that is something to be cheered.

Isn't it funny how things work sometimes. This could easily have been one of those "embarrassing moments" we often fear. Instead it snapped me out of a most horrible place I have been in and reminded me that no matter how I may feel at any given time, I really have no choice other than to be myself, to be true to myself and to be truthful about myself... hopefully lesson learned this time.

:-)

The other lesson I took from this is that the truth is always better than the best lie. I could have told those women that I wasn't a cross dresser. That would have looked a little funny though, wouldn't it? I'm sure those two women would have seen right through the deception and transgenderism would have been dealt yet another blow. How much more true is this with our own loved ones?

I can remember the times I didn't answer honestly when I could have, when I was evasive or simply clammed up.....not a good thing. But that...is another story.


Veronica
Rondelle (Ron) Rogers Jr.