Some of u know me, some don't. Here's where I'm coming from with this post. If it's too long for u, skip to the bottom numbers:
I'm over 60, started CDing in my 50's. At the time, I was just divorced and fed up with women. Also, I had completely lost interest in sex. Anyway, like others here, out of the blue, I started dressing up. I knew I was too old to become an attractive woman. But, I decided I at least I could have breasts!
After about a year of herbs and suction devices, that urge passed. But, NOT the urge to CD! I continued to improve my fem figure, but was VERY unhappy with my fem face! It was WORSE with makeup on! I just looked like a homely, old man in a dress! I began to dress less and less. Until one Halloween, I tried on a mask. It was an epiphany! I realized with a good mask, maybe I could look like a woman. Not just a woman, an ATTRACTIVE woman! Sherry was born! And I hoped to be rid of Robert in a dress, forever!
All my life, I've appreciated attractive women. My girlfriends, my ex, ( who was a Las Vegas show girl), were all pretty. Suddenly, about 7 years ago, a pretty woman appeared in my mirror! It was so exciting! And the first real turn on I had experienced in YEARS! My special faces became a routine part of my CDing. And I continued to dress in COMPLETE isolation until last year.
Now, 7 years later, I continue to try to make Sherry MORE attractive, erotic, and feminine appearing TO ME! I STILL get just as excited and turned on as I did years ago! If I do her looks rite!
When I discovererd this site last year, after all my years of CDing in isolation, I naively assumed EVERYONE dressed for the reasons I did! However, I may be more the exception than the rule here! So, I'm trying to explain WHY I DRESS! I know there r others here who dress for the same reasons I do. And if given MY circumstances, mite be doing some of the same things I do! But, many of u DON'T have a clue why I'm so active in the forum, but CD the odd way I do!
1. I don't desire to be a female. All thots of that, and having real breasts, have passed! If I have a female side, I'm NOT aware of it yet!
2. It's all about the illusion I see! It's VERY exciting for me, and CAN be a huge turn on. Depending on how good Sherry looks that day! At over 60, not much else is exciting, or a turn on for me any more!
3. The more attractive and erotic/exotic the female illusion appears, the better! It's like being with a completely different woman! The more I see a man in a dress in my mirror, or pics, the more the illusion is ruined for me! Dressing to pass, in dull, ordinary, plain outfits, poses no thrill for me! With my masks, it's not possible to pass anyway!
4. Am I a fetish dresser? Yes, of course! But, my "fetish" is appearing to have become an attractive young woman! Anyone else have THAT fetish?
The mask and my female suit don't do ANYTHING for me! No rubber fetish. No "masking" fetish. ( Whatever that is!?) They help make the illusion more realistic for me! Nothing else! If I looked as good as some of u younger girls, I wouldn't use them at all! But, I can't, unless I cheat! So, I CHEAT! So what? Is THAT so wrong!? After all, which of u DOESN'T cheat in some way?
In many ways, my dressing experience is like most everyone elses here! My methods, may be a bit different. But, I think my dressing experiences r often the same as most of u! Like most here, I do the best I can with what I've got! And doesn't EVERY CD want to look pretty?
Do u agree? Or disagree? U can flame me up if u like!
I've learned A LOT in my year here. But, I still have SO MUCH more to learn about my CDing!
I probably learn more from your brutal honesty, than your niceties!