Do I want to be female? Absolutely, with every fibre of my being. I used to identify as a CDer, but I was really just papering over the cracks until I finally admitted to myself what I had really known all my life. As for clothes, well to be honest I really couldn't care less about them, they are just not important. That's not to say I don't like wearing nice things, I do, but I don't get all dressed up all the time, I am quite happy wearing a nice pair of jeans with a top.