Sisters: I am in a quandry again - when I think about divorce so I can dress when I want to and live as JoAnne when I want to, I think about so many of you who are divorced or are unhappy with your present situation. I have read the threads that you have posted about being sad; being alone; just plain unhappiness.
Yes, I have also read about those who have gone out on their own and seem to be doing alright. Do you wish that you were still married or had a SO in your life ?
I have also read about you Sisters who are so fortunate to have spouses or SO's who love you and accept you as you are with no strings attached - you make me so envious.
I am trying to live within my Spouse established boundaries. I am unhappy limited being confined within those boundaries. I do not want SRS. I would like to spend the majority of my time living as JoAnne (or at leasat a lot more than I do now)
My Spouse tells me that I am living in a dream world - she says that all I can focus on is JoAnne - I suppose I am guilty to some extent
I really do not want to be alone and unhappy - at present, I seem to be married and unhappy.
Am I living in the Pink Fog ? JoAnne has blossomed within the last year - maybe too much, I don't know. As JoAnne has blossomed, my marriage has suffered.
In fact, I seem to be stuck in that gray area of not knowing what to do.
I have read where many of you have opined that marriage comes first. But if you are so deep in the Fog that you have nothing to give, what do I do ?
How do you get out of the Pink Fog ? JoAnne is pounding on one side of me and my Spouse is pounding (and about fed up) on the other side of me.
JoAnne wants to express herself. My Spouse says that I have spent way too much money on JoAnne the past 18 months. My Spouse says that I spend too much time thinking about JoAnne.
I have tried in the past to keep JoAnne under control, but the "bitch" has run wild.
What can I do ? I know that if I wind up all alone that I could be even more unhappy, and yet I have to live (only existed right now) with these two women arguing for my time.
Hate to bother you dear Sisters on a Monday morning, but this is on my plate and you are the only ones I can spill out my guts to.
JoAnne Wheeler