Like most of us, I been dressing since I was 5 or 6. But for years, between 11 - 30, i surpressed the feelings with only intermediate occassions of some dressing.
As I hit 40yrs, I began dressing more and wearing more clothes, not just lingerie. I think when I started to wear my clothes and feel more comfortable than gulity, eventually expelling the guilt is when I recognize my realization. I guess it's part of hitting middle life. I'm at the point where I've worked many years, getting closer to retirement. All my friends have well been on their way to making their lives. I'm at a point where I want to claim my life for my own and start enjoying it as it meant be. Cassie is part of that life.
The day I started making room for my femme clothes next to my boy clothes, when caring for the clothes and wearing them like I wear my boy clothes ...that's when it happen to me. I was a crossdresser
Cassie