Before we met I was engaged to someone else. We were so close I thought I could tell her anything and so one day I confessed my feminine feelings. I told her how I felt when I dressed in these clothes and that I had been doing it forever, long before we met. I cried and cried and exposed myself like never before believing we had something so special it could weather any storm.
My reward for my openness and honesty was the return of my ring and the verbal slap, "I want a MAN, not some Thing that wears my clothes".
When we became close and then engaged I wanted so much to tell you. I just could not risk losing you because of this. I could not risk destroying the life we have made because of this. Therefore I put my need on the back burner and remained in the closet hoping I could manage my secret and balance it with our life.
As you know, I couldn't do that. You eventually uncovered my secret. After that I vowed to change, but that is not possible. Years later it became too much and we again were confronted with this. Happily the outcome was different this time. You were able to allow me to show you this part of me and were willing to explore it with me.
Now we are not only best friends, lovers and life partners, but best girl friends as well. I never thought it could be this way and I love you all the more because of your love for me.
Please understand my reluctance years ago to tell you. It was not for lack of trust. It was not to keep some greater secret or shut you out. It was for self-protection and for being unable to let go of you...I hope you now feel it was worth it. I love you so!
