Let me point you to this post by Stephenie S, where she says:
http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/...8&postcount=10
I think what she wrote can apply to your situation as well.
Are you sure about that?....then I think....who am I kidding? Why bother having long hair, nails and losing my muscular physique....I would never be successful,
Are you 100% sure that it can never be realized?Why sacrifice the male side for a female side that can never be realized?
Yes, I think it is. Frankly, I wish I was my scrawny 125 pound late teenage/early 20's self. If I could go back in time, I'd tell myself. "Self! Get on anti-androgens now! Don't let testosterone work on you any longer." But I have to deal with the reality of it. I may be 5' 5.5" tall, but I weigh 180 lbs. Doesn't mean I can't try to learn the ins and outs of fashion and makeup to make the best of it.Is it worth being a skinny weak man just to fit into a smaller sized dress as a woman?
Having less muscle won't make you "weak" just less strong.
No, you're not alone and others have and are dealing with the same thoughts and feelings.Am I alone? Do others fight with these conflicts?
Veronica Rogers