I know I'm only 18 and all but I have always had thought float through my head.
"Would I be better as a girl,"
"I'm not much of a man a should be a girl,"
And so on and so forth. If that is something that really takes you it is something to talk about with your wife, a therapist, and friend and ask for support. I mine self has had so much support and that has really kept me going on in life. I don't like broadcasting this but I have a mental disorder. A chemical imbalance in my brain. It's call Bipolar Disorder and I have my very emotional times in my life and feel like I am a sissy and not masculine in anyway. What is important is that you follow your heart and kept going even if it gets harder. If you hit a brick wall, grab you pickaxe and start swinging.
