Quote Originally Posted by ashgagal View Post
I have been Cding since childhood...long before I had a name for it. Like so many, it started with mom's panties, those soft beautiful secrets...and have continued to grow and expand to full dressing in my adulthood.

One thing hasn't changed though. The unbelievable desire to dress, the thrills and highs, followed by a terrible feeling of guilt and shame over dressing (usually immediately after orgasm). I get this feeling of, "you are a sick person. What is wrong with you. Why can't you be a man??" etc.

Anyone ever concur this?

I have the goal of sleeping en femme but invariably I touch myself and then peel everything off and feel sick and frightened. I want so badly to embrace this and feel good about it.
I used to feel shame afterwards, but it went away with time. I would sometimes underdress and force myself to do normal activities or sleep dressed (without any play-time). It became less and less of an issue so the point where I would start dressing for the sake of dressing and MAYBE relieve some stress.

Since I made the leap to getting fully dressed (not just under-things), if I felt ashamed afterwards I just stayed dressed and waited for the feeling to subside. And it did. And now I primarily dress for comfort and other activities just aren't a big deal anymore if you know what I mean.