This is actually something I struggle with constantly. Even though I enjoy CD-ing, I LOVE being a man just as much, and I have this constant desire to keep the 2 VERY separate. Meaning I will never sit at home and dress halfway. If I dress, its all the way, and rarely alone. Im embarrassed to be a CD. I think many here are very comfortable with it, and even feel more comfortable as a CD. I guess im different that way.
When Im my normal self, I dont want any connections to being a CD, no hints that I might be one or anything like that. Ive never fully embraced being a CD and Im not too sure I ever will. Its been 20 years and no change.
The reason for this is I dont believe that men doing this will ever be accepted. Some people can ignore, but most people in this world dont like it. I probably shouldnt care about that, but I do, mixed in with the fact that I like being male, and Im an example of a CD who isnt comfortable with it, even though when I do it Im like a different person. Its strange.
