So I took the COGATI and scored a 70, androgynous. I know the test is bull but I felt that this was probably fairly accurate. My therapist said that I'm probably just a tomboy which I can't really argue with either. I feel pretty out of place as a male but don't hate my male parts (except when I want to wear tight jeans) and I'm skeptical of the end results of SRS. Why would I want to be asexual for the rest of my life? But then again I find my self thinking about it everyday at some point. I am OK with being a transgenderist, as I have come to understand the word, but in a lot of ways this seems more complicated than male or female. How do I present my self when, were, and to who. It seems like a constant state of transition rather than getting to the other side. I guess in a lot of ways I like the ambiguity of my mental gender state I just have a lot of anxiety about my physical gender. If you put a gun to my head and said take the blue pill or the pink one I'd definitely take the pink because I've already done the blue for 30+ years. I'm rambling sorry.