Hi Ericka, I don't think anyone here can tell you what is right for you - only yu can be the judge of that,but we are happy to be here to support you.
Even if you are TS, we cannor say you must or must not transition, the only right way forward for you is the one that makes you feel most at ease.
You have to sit down (at least as a mental exercise) an dadd up what are the advantages of you transitioning and what are the disadvantages. When you weigh them up against each other you may have a clearer sight of whether this is the right time for you to transition. Whatever the outcome of that exercise, please be assured that we want to be there to support you.
If you have read any of my posts from about a year ago, you will know that I went through a similar kind of exercise and concluded that I had to wait a while longer. That didn't make the dysphoria go away, but at least I was at ease with my decision and knew I had the support of others who had been there before.
I don't understand in what sense you say you don't belong here, you are struugling with gender issues and you are also friendly towards the TG comunity. That makes at least two counts on which you do belong here for as long as you want to be here.
