Tammy,
One thing you have to remember is, for the most part, CDers learn denial as a way of coping with something they cannot discuss with anyone. We live 'normal' lives because that's what we've been taught to do. We pack away that feminine part of us when with the mainstream public and in effect deny it even exists. That may be why more CDers come out later in life. We just don't give a damn who knows or we are sick and tired of hiding it. Still, we become masters of denial and can fool even ourselves. Maybe that's why we can answer polls in a way that improperly represent our true feelings. We don't know we are lying at the time.
I can say that CDing was very sexually exciting to me when I was younger. My first orgasm happened when dressed. Now, at 54, it's all about looking as good as I can but I rarely feel sexy or sensual when dressed. I buy clothes that the average GG would buy rather than clothes that I might find sexy. I like it most when I think I look like a GG. I also like compliments about how I look. But I almost never am sexually aroused by how I'm dressed. I think sexy clothes are for GGs. I can't compete and I don't want to even try. I love the real thing and that's what turns me on.
