Phew !
Thank again everyone.
Got control again (kinda) and heading out to food store to get some stuff for supper.
Some songs for me and Vanessa:
Coldplay Fix You
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pY9b6jgbNyc
Peter Gabriel & Kate Bush -Don't Give Up
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uiCRZLr9oRw
EDIT Oct 21'11: Reality, I don't have control of anything. I want so much to take the good advise from my sisters here. I hope I never forget the love shown here. thank-you for giving a cr*p about a total stranger.