This is an amazingly difficult subject.
After almost 6 years of letting Tina learn about herself, we are convinced that the best way to describe my two gendered selves is, "two applications running on the same database!". We've come to the conclusion that a part of my brain is just not wired in the way my physiology would imply.
So, what does that mean? Simply stated, when I'm a guy, I'm a guy. Tina, however, shuts down all that guy stuff during the transformation process. Tina has no interest in talking like a guy, thinking like a guy, looking like a guy, etc. etc. She has no interest in living like a guy. Simply looking like Tina is just not enough!
Does that make it hard for Tina? The physiology has been a struggle. The mental changes were never a struggle. The physiological issues are being tamed bit by bit, and that helps Tina to feel better about herself.
It really is somewhat bizarre, but that's who I am!
