For me it satrted out as something that simply just for fun. As I got older and began to understand the idea of crossdressing it became much more than "for fun". It became another persona. Another part of me. Which I honestly believe was always there from the beginning, I just didn't know how to accept it as such. No I just do it because it's who I am, antoinette! \(^-^)/. Sadly I can't fully be me 100% due to work and my gf (she deserves a man not a woman) but one day I want to bring both worlds together and live happily as antoinette. Hope that made sense