I am rereading this excellent post. MP'ers. I am one. Things are becoming more difficult for me, always presenting as male. I see myself slowly changing my appearance to make myself more at ease. I always thought that I could control this and turn it on and shut it off, but as I age(early 40's)I am realizing that I continue to move in a feminine direction. I see I am at that age, tick toc tick toc of transition, it is scaring me, but I like how feminine I am feeling too.
People do notice. I had a confrontation tonight with a co worker(we are all really freelance people or sub contractors) that was fired off a job I am still doing, I was just in the wrong place at the wrong time. I had nothing to do with him getting canned..... but he called me names and swore at me and made cutting remarks about my gender etc. he was drunk..it was uncomfortable, he was soon asked to leave by people that came to my aid..I was just getting ready to kick his old ass(not really)
My point, besides wanting to share, is that he sees me as feminine, not a real man. I saw on his angry face the truth of what I am.
I am always smooth, except arm hair and always under dress, sometimes light make up, and am sashaying around and smiling at times, because that is me.
Not over the top flaming stuff, so I think.....
I am grateful to read the words of others here. It helps to center myself.
I am not looking to transition. I would like to stop right here, and just continue to dress up and feel feminine.
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Nomei
