@ Plasibeau, it usually does arise from dressing, but the thoughts enter my head more frequently, even when im not dressed (ie. when im just standing in line at the office to register for a class, and i see this white european guy). and yea, ive thought about experimenting. i've grown more accepting to the possibility. im just worried about how ill feel after the makeup, clothes, and everything comes off., will i be happy? will i feel like throwing up? Definitely won't know until i just try.
@Ann Carpenter, I think thats right. That im looking for acceptance. But in my mind, im thinking, shouldnt i be already be happy with the friends that know and accept this aspect about me? I guess what im looking for is something more than that.... and believe me, i've come close to going home with a guy that flirts with me while im at the bar. It's hard to say no, but i want to be smart about it and not jump right in.
@ wadevikingfan, thats what im leaning towards on doing..
Thanks Mikayla, ill definitely be messaging you later.