im ready to go to meets, get people to go to the Tg/gay clubs to go with,
Hanging out with other people that are dealing with similar issues in life is a very good way to give you some perspective! I'm glad you're taking that step and not trying to figure things out isolated in your home.
The crossdressing community is one that needs to stick together and continue to be there for each other for whatever one needs. We are always trying to improve the forum to better serve the crossdresser in all of us.