It started for me around 4 or 5 years old. Not due to any influences just a desire I had to be a girl. It is one of my earliest memories. Yes for a while during puberty and shortly thereafter it had a sexual component but during that time with my body being assaulted by massive amounts of testosterone it is no wonder. Almost anything was sexual at that time. Years passed and now there is just the opposite. When dressing or thinking about dressing sex is not even a small thought and is a bit repulsive at times. Through all of this I was always enamoured with females and rarely had any use at all for men. Not even as friends. I cannot think of any time when this behaviour was encouraged, in fact it was very strongly discouraged by all I knew. I still had the desire as long as I can remember to look as much like a female as I can, even though most times it was not something I could do.
