Quote Originally Posted by JessGold View Post
I guess no one wants to be first...
Here's a personal one. I was sexually abused when i was younger and as coping mechanism choose to blame all transsexual feelings/compulsions on that past. I dismissed them as false until I could deny it no longer. Were you abused? Did it cloud your acknowledging yourself?

i started to feel different than the other kids around 3rd grade but i also had alot of other problems that surfaced at that same time too and i didnt fully comprehend what all my body was trying to do. in 5th grade i was sexually assaulted and Physically abused by my teacher. and was in counciling for that event until I attempted Suicide in 8th grade. at this point in my life i knew enough to be dead Silent about who i was because of the lack in acceptance i had recieved about the other problems that overshadowed my transgender feelings.... by end of 8th grade i knew for sure what i wanted and started slowly changing my attire.. and other things that i could get away with without getting in trouble.. by end of 8th grade i was a total wreck due to the effects of puberty and other outward issues i had... i then learned to hide who i was until i came out at age 29... i never should have hidden.. i should have been honest and taken the fact my parents would have done anything to not go through the pain they went through when i was wanting to die as a child. yes i was abused... does it effect who i am sure to some extent... does it change WHO i am NO..