For me it is the realization that I have a very feminine side (gurlie side would be a better phrase). I have rejected it for years and kept it suppressed. Since engaging this forum, I have begun to accept it as a part of my total self, and that dressing is a means to express it to myself. I haven't begun to sense where I will be down the road, but there is a road there now. I haven't gotten past the exhileration phase when I dress. Maybe when I can partially dress for more than a couple hours.
