Well I don't know what got into me, but I went out in girl mode on my way to work the other day. Pulling out of my garage with my skirt, blouse,, heels, tights on (no make up) was nerve racking. But I made it out of my neighborhood alive...only to discover that I forgot my work keys...Aaarghh! So I had to go back, park in my garage, close the door, get my keys and do it all over again...lol.
Once on the hwy I put my forms in and my wig on. I can't describe the feeling that I had except to say that I felt liberated. I found myself very nervous too though. Many times I would look away as a car passed. I ended up getting too nervous so I just took my wig off and my forms out.
As I got closer to my work (about 40 minutes later) I started to try to figure out how I was going to change back into my guy clothes. I was so determined to do this that I purposely did not think about how I would change back when I left the house. Deep inside I think I was hoping that somehow I would get the nerve to just go into work in gurl mode. Yeah right! So I ended up just changing one item at a time at stop lights during morning traffic in Chicago...ha ha omg. What a sight as I think back.
ICING ON THE CAKE was that I told my best friend over a beer the same night after work that I am a cross dresser. This was a BIG step for me as just my wife, Mom and Brother know. He was very supportive.
All in all a pretty epic day for me. One to remember because I feel like I cleared a couple big humps successfully. I hope that this will only help me continue to live the life that I want to live. What that life is exactly I am not sure. All I know is that I want Natalie to be a bigger part of my life.