Reading the posts of sometimes-miss, Frederique and Veronica just confirms that many CDs do not understand the first thing about being TS. As far as I can tell most of you are cisgendered and being TS is completely outside of your experience. Living with a male body from a young age and feeling it is fundamentally wrong is outside the experience of anyone who does not have that split between mind and body.
I went full time eight months ago because I had run out of options. It was a frightening thing to do but so was killing myself. Being full time has plenty of challenges but it has relieved the gender dysphoria. I am a woman despite the fact that I was born male. My inner female gender is not some illusion or fantasy. It not the result of convincing myself that I am a woman. I would not have put myself through the last eight months for an illusion or fantasy for anything. I am sorry Frederique you are an excellent writer and come up with interesting questions but you have shown time and time again that you just do not get it. To be honest I would not expect you to unless you have experienced it. I really wish I did not get it and could play dress up in pretty clothes instead of having to live the reality of it 24/7 .
