LOL - "EVEN"??? I'm not in the same league! Big difference between looking at what's coming vs. actually having done it. I know it, and they know it.
What this describes is a shift in mindset. A lot of people talked about hormones creating a pressure to transition. I haven't found that true at all. What is true is I've become more stable, have better perspective, my judgement is improving, and I'm happier. So I can see making transition "work" ... even without knowing exactly what that means. Things feel a lot more like "why wouldn't I?" and no longer "should I?".
Steph, I can't imagine a more daunting environment in which to transition. A cop. In the Southwest. My God.