I think you are just like a bunch of us on here that have been through this before. It is confusing to know where one stands on this. I feel also that there are many degrees of this CD thing. I know many will get to a place they are comfortable at and stay on that point for their whole lives. It could be just an occasional dress, maybe just a certain item of clothing does the trick for them, or maybe it's the whole out Trans thing. You are right take things slowly. The kicks will come. Take baby steps and you will have enough kicks to last your life time. If you reach the pinnacle where there are no more kicks left in life then you will try and find something else that may harm you or kill you. Remember as an old song says "Kicks just keep getting harder to find". We sometimes rush those kicks in our life to the point we lose who we are and where we should be in life's journey. Be true to yourself but take it and make it happen slowly so you can enjoy the kicks along the way. JMHO on life and CD.
