I can remember back as far as when i was about 4 playing with and trying on my mothers bra and heels. A friend of hers was over and saw me and commented on how cute I was to want to look like my mom. Then I looked at lingerie ads in publications and wondering if I would grow up to look like this. Nothing was ever said to me about either. Maybe thought that I was just too young to understand. This was in the late 50's. It wasn't until I was 12 almost 13 did I dress fully. I have no idea why. It just felt like the right thing to do. From that day on I get the most wonderful clam feeling as if this is the way I was meant to be.
I've always been jealous about how many different choises women have in clothing styles and colors. Men have a basic and limited choises that's not diverse enough for me. I once told this to a GG I was dating and she told me that she would teach and help me dress if I wanted to. Like an idiot I said no hiding for the fear of being humiliated for what I've been doing for years. I look back on this as one of the greatest mistakes I've made in life.
What I find the most amazing is so many of us have the same past from the time we experiemented at an early age to looking forward to the hamper, bathing suits and lingerie hanging to dry in the bathroom when we were in our early teens.
