About the Monster High stuff... Being drawn in such a way to the female character in those shows it pretty cool. When I watch shows involving HS/JHS girls either live actors or animated I always wish I had their lives and just experiencing it through watching it makes me somehow happier inside. Sometimes I think I grew up in the wrong life... like I got in the wrong line somewhere along they way. Ever had that happen, you get in the wrong line for something and your experience afterwards is one of simply being lost? That's how I feel about my childhood and teen years.
But, like you, I had a family who would have been far from supportive. My father was a hardcore religious man and to him crossdressing was a sin. Even as a joke for Halloween it was a sin. So I, as many others do, understand your situation yet honestly have no advice to offer on the family front. Only way I deal with the family issue is living thousands of miles from them so they know nothing. However, on the issues of conforming to society I have only this to say and it is the pearl of wisdom which changed my whole life. Crossdressing, being trans, or whatever you identify as, hurts no one. Other people being bothered by what you wear is more about them not about you. It is an issue within themselves not a wrongness in the man wearing the dress. Their reactions are a product of their own prejudices born out of their own insecurities (can't believe how dangerously close I just came to quoting Edward Said). So never, ever, ever ever ever, feel bad about it. Love always
