For 35years I have been dressing off and on have purged many times. I have a wonderful life with my wife and two grown kids now out of the house. I started to open up to my wife by having pedicure and manicures done every two weeks. Have gone from clear to color on my toes and nails all the time. I started shaving my legs and under arms, they are smooth all the time now boy that feels good. It was shortly after when I purchased panties and hoes and put them in my drawer that she asked me what was going on I told here I was a cross-dresser then came all the why questions and what was going on. I am not sure what she believes, but a few weeks ago I asked here for a time for me in the bedroom, bathroom, I did that because I have had no alone time for me, that did not go well the tears and questions why. I feel that we are damned if we tell and damned if we don't. You that have under standing So do not know how lucky you are. I an not ready to run off to dress out of the house just yet, I would rather not hide but there is very little understanding Frustrated.