If you think hormones will make you feel like a woman or that it will help you integrate as a female. You will be severely disappointed. Hormones are powerful chemical agents that are at the core of our chemical presence. They really should not be introduced until after extensive self-exploration. Wanting to go out dressed and feeling happy while dressed is not enough to warrant hormones. You can do all the dressing and interaction you desire without them. Are you ready to be chemically castrated and lose sexual function of your penis? Your flippant attitude about wanting hormone therapy is disturbing. Transition is a serious brutal process that can take its toll in many ways unless one is prepared to deal with the consequences.
There are huge differences between identity and wishing for an identity. You can not wish or will an identity. Those that think they need to will surely be disappointed. But hey look on the bright side. After you go through the process of hormone ingestion, continue on with surgical procedures and come to the conclusion it was all just a fantasy. You can write a book and hit the media trail and make lots of money decrying how the system let you down and transition is a ruse to be avoided in all cases/
Do you really think it's any less difficult to integrate as a woman with male features after 18 months of hormones. Hormones do have some impact on physical attributes, but not nearly as much as you may think. Unless you have gobs of cash to throw at transition, or be genetically gifted, be forewarned and prepared it will be a difficult road if you think you will magically blend in and "pass".
