Joanne, I know how you must feel. I'm a few weeks away from my first time going out dressed. It's something I never, ever thought I would possibly do, but it's happening with the support and friendship I've found here. Part of me is saying, "You're doing WHAT?!?" and is terrified, and another part of me is thrilled with the idea and can't stop thinking about it. I never felt a need to go out dressed, but I simply can't pass up this opportunity to find out, "What if?" You're very lucky to have this kind of support