What caused me to become a crossdresser? I’m not sure if I was born this way or if I was born this way but somehow needed a “trigger” to release the desire to want to wear girl’s clothes or not. However, there is one thing that happened to me though, when I was six years old that I shall never forget. All my earliest memories of wanting to crossdress came after this happened.
As children, the kids in our street often played games in large groups. There was one time that I remember when about twelve of us were playing hide and seek. I remember running and hiding in my parents garage with one of my friends Rebecca, who lived a few doors down from me. I can’t remember the exact details of how it happened but, while we were hiding, Rebecca insisted that she dress me in her cardigan sweater. I can still recall to this day the intense feelings of excitement and fear that I had when she was doing this to me. I think I was excited because I really liked Rebecca, she was one of my best friends, and I enjoyed her attention. Also I think the fear was borne out of doing something (wearing a girl’s cardigan) that was somehow “forbidden” and also the fear of getting caught. We could have been found at any minute. Mix all of those emotions together into an intense moment, and at a formative age and well ... all I know is that after this event, my desire to want to dress up in girls clothes grew stronger and stronger ... and I still love to wear feminine cardigan sweaters today
