I went back and read some of your posts. You're 19 and out of school. You describe the geographical area that you live in as being anti anything. There are areas of the country that are more accepting of cross dressers. You may want to consider the option of relocating. There are states, such as Washington, that offer legal protections to transgendered men and women. Your youth shown in your picture would suggest you have immense potential. I think if any person stares you would be recognized as a cross dresser. However, if you're in an environment where cross dressers and transgendered men and women live, there a fewer prying eyes. I'd considered relocating, attending college, and joining a support group. I think a person becomes less self conscious when he or she can associate with similar people. It's only natural.
