I'm 58 , and i'm more or less the same.
However this is very timely, as my mum basically asked me the same question on the phone today.
Answer = "It was in the past and i didn't even think about it then. As for now, i'm reasonably content with a male side and a femme side".
But to be honest, the femme side is getting more prominent.
In the past I had dreams and fantasies. Dressed occasionally and very ashamed of CDing. But that was then, it's different now.
And going back to the original question, I would definitly have been more open and no longer hidden away, and I really don't know, what I would have done. I still don't know if i'm CD or on my way to TS, time will tell.