I think I have to agree with you on this one. I went through some pretty hard times in my life the past couple of years and I found I dressed less & less and the desire simply wasn't there. I don't really wish to get into the specifics on what was going on, but it did lead me to take anti depressants. My wife & I moved from one town to the next and she found some of my en femme stuff. Since she is unaccepting I came up with a BS story about how they belonged to a friend at Halloween and he left them behind when he moved just a week latter. Luckily she bought into it b/c this guy did dress as a woman for Halloween. I also took that as a sign, that maybe it was time to ditch dressing all together, so I purged most of my things. I still have a few en femme items left and the urge to dress and look hot & sexy is starting to come back. I have been seriously thinking of renting a private mailbox to get girly things. I even found myself wandering through the ladies clothing section at Wally World the other day eyeing up bras & swimsuits. For the most part, I have been better. I got in touch with a friend on here who has been encouraging me. So in relation to your topic, that lady in the shadows never really goes away b/c in time I think I will be able to strap on the heels and not feel ashamed. I hate having to hide this from my wife and in some ways she has been the reasons why this has been a gradual process b/c what if she finds my things again?
