Funny you should ask that. My last girlfriend passed away at the beginning of the year. We were actually more like brother and sister, or sister and sister. She was the main reason that I wound up were I am today. I call it gender fluid.

When she died, it turned my life around 180 degrees. It was actually more than that. I had a new life, was pretty much retired and I was in a position to do whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted. Since she was such a catalyst in my finding out this side of me, I promised myself that I would continue and do so like I had never done before. I also decided that if and when I met someone that they would know and I would continue to be Cassandra whenever I could. If it meant that a relationship didn't flourish and move forward, so be it. It was very different indeed to find that at this time in my life, I actually enjoyed being alone and would not compromise my life just for the sake of having a girlfriend.

So about 18 weeks ago I met a really nice lady. We really hit it off in a big way. And yet I am being cautious with my heart and what I have. I'm no longer working, struggling to pay bills, but at the same time I'm not really wealthy. It's surprising that I am being careful about this instead of just falling madly in love. Why is that?

After a few weeks, I told her about some of the things that went on in my previous relationship/lifetime and about my dressing up. She was okay with that and the only thing she said was "You're not going to get all transgendered on me, are you?" And although it wasn't until last week that I actually dressed up in front of her. But she's been the source of a great deal of encouragement. She told me to get my ears pierced and I did. That is just awesome. Not only can I wear real earrings, but I can wear some of the ones that my girl had bought in Mexico when we vacationed. I had some of her rings re sized too. We went for pedicures last Monday and afterward, she painted my fingernails and toenails. And then she did my makeup. Of course, before she did any of that, I put on a pair of capris and a blouse along with one of my wigs. So now, I've been dressed in front of her 3 times since last Monday. It's very very awesome to say the least.

I am sure that in the near future, not only will I be going out more in public, but we will be going out together as well. The whole experience with her has re-ignited my desires to dress and spend as much time as I can in girl mode without losing my guy side, which I actually enjoy quite a bit. Maybe she's just going along with it because she's needy or desperate or will have a hand out at some point. Who knows. In the meantime, I am thoroughly enjoying this.

If this relationship doesn't work out, it won't change anything. Any woman I meet from this point on, will know and Cassandra will be a part of our lives. Why? because it's part of who I am. And I'm going to be honest about that an enjoy my new life. After all, I owe someone that and it's debt that I can only repay by being true to myself. I feel bad for those on here who have to hide, and I understand why.

So yeah, if I rambled a bit here, sorry. Just be honest, and true to yourself. Something I just thought of and it should be an obvious thing to tell woman. You're obviously interested in pursuing a romantic relationship with a member of the opposite sex and that's all that should really matter.