I love my wife and kids and would never change that. That being said, if I were 20 again and knowing that this wasn't a passing fad in my life things would be very different for me. Also if times were different back then and if I didn't fear rejection from my family. The real question is if I were 20 and single now. If I was 20 and single now I would be working towards a full transition and a relationship with a person who would love for who I am weather that person was male of female.