Nancy,
I was going to ask you age then I read in your profile that you're retired !
It's very hard to accept the mental torture at your age when you should be allowed to come to terms with your CDing ! It's the point I made in my last talk with my wife otherwise we would struggle to live the rest of our lives together, at some point you will have to be allowed to be Nancy !
I guess it's back to the negotiating table and see if you can get the balance right !
I wish you the best and hope your wife sees how much it hurts you !