Red, Your story sounds very similar to mine, except, i am 60, never got a chance to marry, period. The religious torment, of being in one, that i agree with, except ti forbids crossdressing, amd only accepts heterosexual marriage, and almost everyone in it, is married, and i am a cd loner, who must be secret. Low income here, family of origin would skewer me if they knew. Feel suicidal often. I know many here have not had these issues as strongly, and are very joyful, but some of us, every day is a severe stressful battle . i feel your pain. I go to a VA woman therapist, and she totally disagree with my religion. I am torn, so, my name, Alice Torn. Good therapists can be very expensive, and us low incomers cannot afford them. We have to go to either VA if veterans, or a sliding scale one. It sure can seem like you are all alone at times, with this thing. But you can check in here.
