Up until I was about five years old, I was simply not aware of gender. Before then my parents never socialized my brother and me with other children that I can remember, and I did not know what gender I was, and did not care. Once I became aware of gender, I thought I could choose, and I wanted to be a girl. By the time I was seven, I realized that being a boy just felt wrong, but by then I also realized that I was locked into it whether I liked it or not. I also thought it was still possible to be a girl by growing my hair long and dressing like one. Until I was about ten, I also thought that girls had penises.
So, FWIW, I am a slightly butch girl, stuck in 52 year old, five foot seven inch tall, 160 pound male body. I like to dress sexy, but I don't like frills, ruffles or lace. I like gardening, drawing and painting, but I also like driving exotic cars on the racetrack. I read romance novels and I also read science fiction. And that is just me.
ShayLeigh Dominique
What she said. That just freaking nails it.
