the short answer is lots(and lots) of cds, tgs and ts people have these feelings...and lots of those feelings seem to go up and down over time..
each of our "proclivities" is a natural expression of our own selves and i hope everyone can enjoy their own feelings with no shame or fear
also i know the behaviour of getting the release of the sexual attraction can become very addicting and calming to the anxiety of gender dysphoria
