The answers to this question may very well be at the core of our individual motivation and why we are satisfied by the way we behave as individuals... I've pondered this a whole day before replying, and unsurprisingly someone else has hit on something that resonates strongly with me:

Quote Originally Posted by Confucius View Post
I am a man with a great appreciation for the feminine. I love many things about crossdressing, but I do not want to be a female. I don't think I could crossdress for more than a single day. Even so, I don't think I could go a single day without thinking about crossdressing either.
Similarly I have no uncertainty about identifying male, and no desire to express overtly feminine aspects of dress or presentation while in male mode (although smooth legs and neat eyebrows and nails are a byproduct of feminine presentation, I wouldn't be embarrassed or coy about these covert signs being spotted) but I experience great satisfaction and harmony with fully transforming and adopting more feminine mannerisms and behaviour for a limited time to express this otherwise hidden facet of my persona...

When a teenager I also had fantasies about 'magically' flipping between male and female but there was never any further substance to those fantasies - intellectually, it would be fascinating to 'know' what it felt like to be a woman, but I struggle with seeing how any of us could really approach that understanding without the immersive, societal development that takes place in childhood and puberty and the obvious maternal aspects of womanhood - just another aspect for me that deepens the respect and awe I have for folk that transition socially (and physically) and why I can understand how they see many aspects of 'just' crossdressing as trivial by comparison. I think we do face other complexities but that's not for here...

I just wish I knew what it was that makes us pursue these rather peculiar and inexplicable behaviours, AND why it makes us feel so comfortable...

Katey x