hi, girl your you are not broken, confused , yes, but look around the whole world is confused,all my family and friends , polititions everyday people are confused , we just have one more thing to be confused by cding, but you know, cding , the one thing that that keeps me sane, it brings out feelings that make me feel warm and nice.so whatever you do with it keep it to yourself or shout it to the world , enjoy the the trip, and enjoy being on this forum , some of the best people , you will ever know, love peace Lynda