Jessica,
Most of us understand your feelings , you will have to try and get to the point that what's inside you you can do nothing about so try not to feel guilty about it.
My last counsellor tried to impress on me not to live my life with a head full of assumptions , finding you're going round in circles ! Important things have to said sometimes to break that cycle otherwise it just gets worse . CDing is not an illness but it can induce it especially mentally if you can't talk to someone about it, I finally succumbed to counselling even without my wife' support . It did make things more difficult as I was talking openly to one person and not to my wife apart from it finally persuaded me to tell my son because of the problems we were having with our marriage .
