Hi girls, this is not easy to talk about, but you girls are the only ones who might understand this, I got some news today , they have found a large shadow on my lungs , when my x rays came back, so my doctors want meet me on Monday, to decuss what to do next. but that is just back ground. I don't want you feel sorry for me, I have had a great life and I plan to be around for some time yet, but it got me thinking about my crossdressing/ transgender issue and really about my other side Lynda, I really love being her , but even thu I don't hide her, shes hidden . my sister and the rest of my family and people I meet know that my mannerisms and dress are feminine they, fluff it off that I am not a crossdresser, it that I am a musician and artist ,so I am just acting quirky . I don't know I have never told or said , hey I am transgender and the other side of me is a women named Lynda and she makes up 90 percent of who I am . ijust don't want her forgotten, when I am gone. so heres hoping the third xray shows only scar tissue and I have some time left , but it just got me thinking about this and how much Lynda is apart of a lot of the good in me. thanks girls for hearing me out love peace Lynda