Have you been with a guy?

[jenni_xx]

I haven't and although I have a wife I am secretly attracted to men and have all my life. I think I sort of new this when I was a teenager I all my crushes were on male pop stars and actors. When I begun crossdressing in my mothers skirt and tights I had the most almighty crush on Donny Osmond. When I was in girl mode I would look at his pictures on magazines, drool over him and like every girl of my age wished he was my boyfriend. I have never had a relationship with a man but when I am dressed as Nannette I am always dreaming and imagining what it would be like to be with a guy but only as a real woman which is never going to happen. My thoughts are often of a really gorgeous guy who used to work in the office I used to work in. I haven't seen him for over a decade but have real feelings for him. I imagine that I am walking down the aisle with him in a beautiful white wedding dress and white stockings or tights underneath. He is a big golf fan and I imagine going with him to golf club dinners in a cute black dress and black tights. I am dressed up in my girly office outfit whilst typing this and getting quite hot under the collar thinking of him. He is not a conventially handsome guy but he is very sporty and macho and all the girls loved him. Most of the guys that attract me are handsome guys in their early 20's and thirties. A couple of months ago I ordered a pizza in the middle of a dressing session. I put my male clothes on underneath my tights and the hottest young guy I have seen in a while delivered my pizza. I didn't know where to look.

So how does your wife feel about this?

Your post is the epitomy of fantasy. You know this.

This really annoys me about the cd community. That being being with a man is clearly a fantasy that is apparent in a a fair number of cd's, and yet if a cd comes out to his (sorry her) girlfriend/wife, then they hate it when the next (inevitable) question that they face is "are you gay?".

"No, no, I'm not gay dear wife/girlfriend".

How many here have, upon coming out to their female partner, and being faced with such a question, genuinely answered that question by saying, "well, I'm not gay, but I have fantasised about being with a man just so that I myself can feel closer to what it feels like being a woman".

How many? This is specifically asked of all those in this thread who have thought about it, but never, or ever have any intention on acting upon such a fantasy.

Judging from a lot of you who have responded to this thread - the ones who seek a man's attraction if only to validate their ideal status as being regarded as a woman, well, let's just say this, it's about time that you were actually honest to your partners. And it's about time that you realised why your partners, upon you coming out to them as a crossdresser, would respond with asking if you are gay.

For many, it seems that there actually is a link between dressing and sexuality.