Oooh, so been there
For me, as I got older, the female voice got louder, then when I had a significant downward shift in my job, I decided I didn't care if the girl came out to play.
So instead of the internal struggle, I go girl mode for a few hours per week, let her have control for a bit, it is so relaxing and good for my mental health.
Best of luck with your inner girl
Rachel.