Jamie, just joining this site you've begun to accept your femme self, your other side as you put it. I too was in that situation, to macho to let on that I could possibly be feminine in any way. But now I'm a "gender fluid" being and started to incorporate my femme self in little ways such as eating a more healthy diet and losing extra weight which sounds like nothing femme but I believe helps to begin the acceptance phase and brings body and mind together. Just how I did it but that was just me. Just an example from one who used to be similar to you.
